Haiku of the Day

flowing with brushstrokes

over a landscape serene

blowing with the wind

Reflections

a pool of water at my feet
reflects the light inside of me
golden hues and copper tones
of mortal flesh and bones
if I should move I am afraid
the light within me will fade
and set aside its mortal host
the parts of me I love the most
so I will stay whole and complete
with this pool of water at my feet ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You're Beautiful

you are a beautiful person in every way
and I want you to know you brighten my day
I would survive and make do
but I could never live without you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Autumn Morning

I'm alone as the night fades from black to gray
the pumpkin colored sun peeks over the horizon
dying leaves rattle in the wind threatening to blow away
and the yellow grass crunches beneath my feet
a gust of cold wind steals my breath for a second or two
the sky is clear but bleak this morning
I hear the crows' raucous cawing in the distance
it has replaced the songbirds' sweet melodies
a chill travels down my spine as I shudder away the cold
and bundle myself up tighter against the wind

thoughts of you seem to thaw me
my mind wanders to walks we've shared
holding hands, lost in each other
I never mind the cold when I am with you

I think of you this autumn morning
and everything suddenly turns lush and green
the songbirds are once again singing
the breeze is light and warm
the sun is glowing turning the sky golden with its' light
flowers are blossoming around my feet
and there's a light scent of lilac in the air
the dew on the grass dampens my shoes
the leaves in the trees seem to float in the breeze
the dismal autumn has been replaced
with a mild and gentle spring ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Halloween Haiku

black cat in darkness

the moon is spooky tonight

Happy Halloween!

Hope and Fear

I know how it started
I know how we parted
but where did things go wrong?
I've known you for so long
the years stretch into a maze
you were more than just a phase
where do we go from here?
I'm filled with hope and fear
you are all I know
this is a chance to grow
but still I'm standing here
full of hope and fear ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Another Haiku

like the wildflowers

like the mountains staid and true

like my love for you

The Dream #2

I know not when it began
only that you were there
and we floated over land and sea
the sunlight made your eyes sparkle like garnets
and we held onto each other
afraid of falling from our embrace

night came and still we soared
you were lovely looking down at the city lights
the moonlight revealed wonder in your eyes
and still we clung to each other
to stave off the chilly night air
you kept me warm with your body heat
you were always warmer than everyone else

at last we drifted down toward a city park
we could see everything in the dark
then suddenly you were gone and I was alone
lost and stumbling through the woods
looking for you, only for you
I searched and searched for hours it seemed

then I awoke and you were next to me

let it always be, you next to me ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku of the Day

butterflies in flight

dancing over nature's green

to places unseen

Time

in the midst of time's trial
time will eat away the bile
rising in my throat so dense
help this all make sense

in the midst of time eternal
in the midst of pain infernal
at the mercy of the clock
anchored firmly at its dock

in the midst of time immortal
I'm searching for a magic portal
transport me to future years
when time will have dried my tears ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Memories

memories vivid and sweet
ring like bells on faeries' feet
reminding me of days gone by
I think of you and sigh

vines grow high and now replace
the spot where I first saw your face
I play the movies in my head
and dream of you in my bed

the memories will never die
I think of you and sigh ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

I'll follow this fence

wherever it may lead me

please let it be home

The Last Poem

this is the last poem I will write
is what I said to myself tonight
it may be long, it may be sad
chances are it will be bad

this is the last poem I will write
I'm giving up the literary fight
it's something I will never win
so I might as well give in

this is the last poem I will write
I hope you understand my blight
I'm hanging up the paper and pen
(but tomorrow I will write again) ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

golden reflections

glowing in the dark of night

like honey from bees

Writing

Sometimes things just come to me out of nowhere and I write them down. Lately, a lot of crap has been coming to me. I hate my writing more and more everyday but I keep doing it. Maybe I'm just writing this to let my readers know that I'm aware that my recent writing is crap. Yes, I do understand that. But bear with me, better things are coming. I'm pretty sure. Why not stick around and find out? I'll never be a great poet but I might actually write something worth reading someday!

The Lint Trap

blue fibers, red threads
bare and brittle like my bones
gray fluff of who knows what
empty as my soul ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

The Fight

I wouldn't care to see you today
so why don't you simply go away
I know we've had a terrible fight
but it hasn't been cured overnight

I wouldn't care to see you today
so now you best be on your way
maybe tomorrow we can talk
but not if you continue to stalk

I wouldn't care to see you today
no matter what you do or say
in time I'll feel differently
but today you need to leave ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

The Dream

I floated in the mist
and clenched my bloody fist
I saw it once in a dream
it was torn and broken at the seam
down fast the water came
initiating its brutal game
the current swept me away
I tumbled in the fray
water ran down my throat
as I struggled to stay afloat
torn and broken at the seam
it was a hell of a dream
I clenched my bloody fist
and remembered floating in the mist ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

My Love is a Jewel

I love you in so many ways
perfect like pearls, and round
I'd swim for them in the ocean, for you
my love is the deepest red of the ruby
and the bright blue of a sapphire
fire and ice
fire and ice in my veins
the eternal sparkle of the diamond
the elegance of the emerald cut
the sunset hue of the amethyst
the list goes on and on...
my love is a jewel that can only be worn by you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

kid stuff

I like yellow and blue
I like you

do you like yellow and blue?
do you like me too?

oh, you do like me!
I'm as happy as can be ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

A Bad Day

so alone
the mind is a solitary prison
its fortress walls are impenetrable
so lost
with no bearings at all
and nothing to grab onto
such a forlorn existence
sometimes it's unbearable ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

raindrops on flower

floating on a pond of glass

pretty little thing

The Blizzard

frost gathers on my window pane
I feel a bitter draft
snowflakes blow like grains of sand in a desert
coating everything in sight a shimmering white

words on the page begin to blur
I give a little yawn and stretch
my cat is wrapped around my feet
my chocolate has gone cold

outside the wind sounds hungry
the yard is a blur of white
inside the fire is dying out
a chill wraps around me

reluctantly I set down my book
and shuffle off to bed
I bundle myself in a downy mass
and drift off to sleep with the cat at my feet ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Berry Wine and Brandy

where have you been?
the taste of berry wine and brandy on your lips
warms my eager mouth
were you careful with your sips
or did you slop about? ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You and I

I kiss you
your lips are soft as rose petals
our noses touch
I taste you
your skin is salty like the sea
warm and smooth as heated rock
I love when we can be alone together
touching, talking, holding hands
holding onto each other while we can
precious time is short
there aren't enough years for me to love you
I've never felt as alive as I feel in your arms
I never want to die
I never want this to end
You and I ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

now the windblown waves

retreat into the vast sea

much like you left me

Haunted

he left me hollow
tossed in the wind like a feather
and just when I thought I found some stability
he returned
and he turned everything upside down
he left me alone
in a barren windswept desert
(the sand fills every pore, you know)
and just when I found an oasis
he returned
I took aim of his chest
pulled the trigger
and now I'm living in a lush paradise

I left him hollow
and hollow he will stay ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You Leaving Me

goodbye dear friend
blow away like leaves from trees
you leaving me
like wood smashing to splinters
how I feel
goodbye dear friend
tears fall like raindrops on the field
you leaving me
how could this be? ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

Oh, Mr.Bluejay

How colorful your feathers!

Stay awhile longer

profiles in the sky

winging on to the unknown

leaving us to cold

Come With Me

come with me
take my hand
follow where I lead
I'll take you to the shore of bliss
we'll walk along wonder beach
the warm beams of love on our cheeks
we'll swim in a pool of ecstasy
just come with me ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Love's Gentle Embrace

love's gentle embrace is alluring
its hand slides down my cheek like notes falling slowly
I close my eyes and hear the music
it's intoxicating
I'm drifting somewhere far away in a fantasy
where strong arms coil around me
keeping me safe
where warm lips brush mine
leaving a shiver down my back
love's gentle embrace is enthralling
I am captured within it
suspended in the beauty
overcome with rapture
it's unbelievable
it's better than a romance novel
it's all-consuming wonder
love's gentle embrace is delicious
like the sweetest drop of nectar on my tongue
it's unearthly
it's divine
I never want to leave ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Change

life flows like a mighty river
no sense swimming against it
just grab onto something and take the ride
myself, I grab onto Eric
we take this journey together
enjoying the scenery along the way
it's so much better like this
I find life and its infinite change
more bearable with him at my side ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Update

Hi there folks! I was just reading my new year's post where I made my affirmations and plotted my course for 2011. I'm nowhere near where I wanted to be, but things are still good. I didn't lose anymore weight, in fact I gained a few pounds back, but I'm still much lighter than I used to be. I met a wonderful man named Eric on February 28th and we are still happily together. This is by far the happiest, healthiest relationship I've ever had. Even so, the depression bug still bites now and then. I'm trying to sleep less and find things to do with my time since I'm still not able to work. I have plans to return to school next year, but we'll have to see how things pan out financially. Once I get my CNA it should be easier to find work. Eric is almost done with his chemotherapy and surgery is around the corner, hopefully by the end of the year. Then he just has radiation and he's out of the woods! Things are looking up all around. I still write poetry when I get the bug, but it's not as good as it used to be. Dunno why? Oh well, it's still fun. That's all for now.

New Beginning

the rain came heavy on my roof
and pieces of me washed away with it
the autumn wind came fierce to my window
and pieces of me blew away with it
the parts that still loved you are gone
and in their place,
the seeds of self respect have been planted
just in time to nourish my new love
I watch it flourish
pure and heady
full of life and all things good
he is my shelter
this is my new beginning ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

me and you

Eric, my love
if I could sail the sea
I'd want you with me
if I could fly the sky
I'd take you for a ride
wherever I go, whatever I do
it will always be me and you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Tonight

I'm really in a writing mood tonight. Most of it is shit but it doesn't matter, I'm getting things out. Wish I could write good poems like the old days but oh well. I'll take what I can get.

lovely is my love

my love is round and smooth
gentle but firm
my love is strong and bold
soft and tender
my love is warm and kind
funny and open
my love is lovely
lovely is my love ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

you can't write a poem about a cat

Komisk is my cat.
He eats, sleeps, plays, and shits.
That's what cats do.

desperation

how soothing your words to my prickly pride
what then when words aren't enough?
how convenient your sorrow
will your tears ever dry?
I taste them salty in my tea ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Friberg

you are mine

like the leaves to the trees
like the honey to the bees

you are mine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

if we two should part

if we lose our love promise me this
you'll never forget our first kiss
you'll hold our first conversation close to your heart
and keep it there while we're apart
you'll never forget the laughs we shared
or the way you gently brushed my hair
you'll never forget the love we made
those memories will never fade
promise me that what we had
was more than just a fad
our love will be suspended in that time
we spent together in our prime
promise me that and I'll be fine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Friberg

your mind is a wonderland

pull me into your fickle fantasy
show me what you dream
do you dream in color
or icy black and white?
let me be a voyeur to your imagination
what moves you, thrills you, turns you on?
what can't you live without?
I long to know you from the inside out
not like Jonah knew the whale
but like Alice from the tale
plummeting into your wonderland
and when we awake my dear
let me hold you near
and know that you are mine
you are mine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

more haiku...

she sits all alone

bathes in magical waters

goes where no man goes ~

see the swirling hues

dancing upon the canvas

drawing you closer ~

Checking in

Well hello there,
I haven't posted any updates or written any poems for ages it seems! I've been doing a lot of reading in my free time, mostly historical romance. I've also been caring for my boyfriend who was recently diagnosed with cancer and is undergoing chemotherapy. His doctors are geniuses, his prognosis is good and so is his attitude. I have little doubt that he will be cured quickly. It's still hard though and I'm still dealing with my depression and anxiety which has worsened lately. Had to switch doctors and get my meds adjusted, we'll see how that works. But my hope is to go back and finish my two year degree next year, then start looking for work. Haven't had any inspiration for writing poetry in quite a while. Which is odd because I'm in the healthiest relationship of my life and I'm madly in love. Then there's the cancer thing... you'd think I'd have something to say. I think I've been internalizing everything, which isn't the healthiest thing to do. Sometimes I just can't figure out how to express myself with words, I'm not the best writer. Maybe to get myself back in the mood I'll find an inspirational picture and do a haiku. haven't done that for a long time! Here goes...

let us stand here now

beneath autumn's vibrant leaves

lest they fly away ~

Update

For those who care for an update on me... I'm still trying to lose weight. I say "trying" because I seemed to plateau at 210 lbs. I'm dying to break the 200 mark but I'm trying to be patient. I'm not doing yoga as much as I used to, my interest has waned a little, so that may be contributing to the problem. But the weather is going to be nice this week so I'm going to try to get outside and walk at Elm Creek Park Reserve. As for my children's book, I sent off the manuscript and got one "no" and several non-responses. Oh well, I really didn't expect to get published, it was just fun writing it. In other news, I've met someone special, his name is Eric. It's still very new but has loads of promise and we are very happy :) way to go universe, you sent me a good one!!

The Stone

your perfect words are
soothing
like cool water over smooth stone
sometimes I find myself wanting
to be the stone,
to feel the flow
and know this is my place in the world
just one small stone
in the river of everything ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

The Glass

the glass is thick but still I place my hand upon the pane
the world whizzes by like a galaxy of shooting stars
my head spins, reeling from the flurry of sound and light
shrinking to the dark that tends the fear
singing to myself of times gone by and things that used to be
now fade away like the wisps of fog on the horizon
still in the sadness, safe behind the glass
etched with memories and pain
alone in the sadness, safe behind the glass
and if I had to choose,
more prison than cocoon ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Fast Food - Yuck!

For some God-awful reason I was craving McDonald's tonight. I haven't eaten fast food in months and I haven't had McDonald's in much longer. The meal is sitting like a lead balloon in my stomach. I want to do my yoga but I'm afraid if I do I'll up-chuck. What was I thinking?? Never again! No more fast food unless it's the healthy menu options.

In other news, aside from tonight's indulgence, my weight loss program is progressing nicely. It looks like I'll make my goal well before the end of the year, unless I hit a stubborn plateau. But I think if I just keep doing what I'm doing and don't give up you could see a slender Angela by summer. Well, perhaps I'll post a pic so you can see. I wish I would have taken a good before photo. Oh well.

What's meant to be will be

I had to remind myself of that tonight. Some things are out of my hands and beyond my control and I just need to let the chips fall where they may. Difficult to do when your heart is hurting and you want something so badly but it's out of your reach. Which reminds me, I was at the grocery store the other day and really wanted these gummy fruit snacks but they were high up and far back on the shelf. I stretched on my tippy-toes but there was no way I could reach them. I felt frustrated and gave up on the damn fruit snacks. Later on I was glad I did because they were pure sugar and high fructose corn syrup and I'm trying to stick to a healthy diet. So maybe this thing I want so badly right now, maybe there's a reason I can't reach it. Maybe it would turn out to be bad for me if I ever got it. Hey, whatever makes me feel better. I can put myself out there but ultimately, what's meant to be will be.

Favorite Songs

Engraved on the back of my iPod:

"Music is an outburst of the soul"

I don't recall who said it but the quote stuck with me. I've been listening to a lot of music lately and compiling a mental list of my faves. So, based on the intensity and duration of my fondness, here are my favorite songs in no particular order. These are all I can think of right now, I know there are more out there.

Bittersweet - Big Head Todd and the Monsters

Tell it Like it is - Aaron Neville

Say - John Mayer

America’s Suitehearts - Fall Out Boy

Let it Be - The Beatles

At This Moment - Billy Vera & the Beaters

At Last - Etta James

A Change is Gonna Come - Sam Cooke

Awake - Josh Groban

The Prayer - Celine Dion and Josh Groban

Float On - Modest Mouse

Free Fallin’ - John Mayer

I’m Yours - Jason Mraz

Kiss - Prince

Video - India Arie

Realize - Colbie Caillat

Remember When it Rained - Josh Groban

Sunday Kind of Love - Ella Fitzgerald

Stormy Weather - Ella Fitzgerald

Yellow - Coldplay

If You Don’t Know Me by Now - Simply Red

Angel - Sarah McLachlan

Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley

Dream On - Aerosmith

I Love You for Sentimental Reasons - Nat King Cole

Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer

Summertime - DJ Jazzy Jeff & the Fresh Prince

La Tortura - Shakira Feat. Alejandro Sanz

It's in His Kiss - Betty Everett

Danny's Song - Kenny Loggins

Life's Railway to Heaven - Patsy Cline

Mad World - Tears for Fears (and Adam Lambert's version)

P.S. To shorten the list I left off classical music. But I just realized these are mostly slow songs; I must be getting old. Oh well!

Haiku of the Day

take all life gives you
a king in this life can be
a fly in the next ~

(Just a random Google image)

Quote of the Day

"A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual doom."

- Martin Luther King, Jr.

This is one of my favorite MLK quotes. I see tragedies like the recent shooting in Arizona and feel our nation is spiritually and morally bankrupt. It has happened slowly over time and we are still heading in the wrong direction - reaching for money, power, and global dominance when we should be striving for peace and equality within our own country. Today, the day we observe the great Dr. King’s birthday, is a great day to reach out to our fellow man with love and acceptance. What better way to honor Dr. King? In fact, let’s just act like every day is his birthday.

Haiku of the Day

 

gravity holds us

but wonder keeps us reaching

for starry heavens ~

(Just another random Google image)

Update

So here's a candid look at my weight loss progress. Because I'm bored and like most people these days I tend to over-share. In August of 2010 I weighed 245lbs. (I've been hovering around 240 for quite a few years now.) Today I weigh 212lbs. My goal weight is 165.  That will be a pretty healthy weight for me. When I break the 200 mark it will be the first time since graduating from high school that I weigh less than 200lbs! That's mind-blowing for me.

It's funny, people always ask me how I'm losing weight, as if I possess some secret that will help them. There's no secret and it isn't complicated, just burn more calories than you take in every day. That's the only way to burn stored up fat. I just cut down on how much I eat, I do cardio and weights 3x a week and practice yoga almost every day. If you want to lose weight you just have to start living healthier, but the trick to that is wanting to do it. Willpower and perseverance will only get you so far. For a permanent lifestyle change you have to really want it. I really feel this is a permanent change for me, not just some phase I'm going through. That's all I have to say about it for now. I'll check back in a few months and let you know how I'm doing.

P.S. Hey, today's date is 1/11/11 - cool!

Haiku of the Day

Just picked a random image from Google to inspire my poem today.

what rosy petals
much like tender little tongues

lapping up the rain ~

Be With Me

when the rest of the world is cold
empty of the love you need
be with me
when darkness falls around you
and you can no longer see
be with me
when things don’t go the way they should
and you need a place to breathe
be with me,
just be with me
and face your troubles as a “we” ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

My New Year's Post

2010 in Review:

Well, I think I made some big strides this year. In my maturity and in my health. I sought help for some health problems and I'm now getting the proper treatment and medications. I'm feeling a thousand percent better. That was a big first step in the right direction. I also started exercising more and eating less and as a result I dropped 25 lbs. I now go to exercise class once a week and practice yoga daily. It's made a big difference, strengthening me physically, mentally, and spiritually. I've had some setbacks in family relations, but I know the love is still there and time will smooth out the bumps.

2011 Goals:

- Become closer to my family
(both mother and father's side)

- Lose 50 more lbs.
(that would put me at a pretty healthy weight for my height and frame)

- Run 5k
(Right now I can't even run to the mailbox but I might be joining a running group that develops you from walking to running 5k)

- Get my passport and visit Canada
(I've lived very close to Canada all my life, here and in Seattle, but I've never been there! I'm planning a trip this summer.)

Well it will be an ambitious year for me. If I can accomplish even half of those goals I will have accomplished a lot. What are your goals for the new year??

December!

I'm not a religious person but this is possibly my favorite month (weather aside). It's the month of holiday music, Baker's Square Candy Cane Pie, hot cocoa, Christmas movies, gifts, delicious feasts, holiday baking, holiday cheer, good will, peace on earth, etc, etc. Here's a little holiday music to make you smile. Enjoy!

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Illuminations

Okay, I broke down and bought Josh Groban's new album called Illuminations as an early Christmas gift for myself. I've been listening to it over and over and I don't know how illuminating it is but I know this, those melodies combined with Josh's voice culminates in hauntingly, achingly beautiful music. I would expect nothing less, that's what he's known for. So there's my plug for his new album - go buy it. You're welcome, Josh. Ha, look at me acting as if anyone, let alone Josh Groban, actually reads this blog. Besides, I'm sure he does pretty alright without any help from me. 

My Prayer

I pray you ease the pain of people in despair

I pray you bring the rains to the dry desert air

I pray you give shelter to the homeless in the streets

I pray you bring food to those who don't eat

I pray you bring warmth to those who are cold

I pray you spread joy to the young and the old

I pray you bring peace and love to this world

And to you, choruses of earthly praises unfurl

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

I Travel On

frosty though the roads
and cold the winter snows

I travel on

through dark and icy nights
and blizzard walls of white

I travel on

and during the day
when the sky is solid gray

I travel on

let nothing slow my momentum

let nothing quell my song

I travel on,

I travel on ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Friberg

Victory Sweet

what started out so sweet

ended in clear defeat

but I didn’t know it was a game

you kept your cards so close to the vest

the king of hearts tattooed on your chest

you wear it without shame

by the time you had your victory sweet

I was a pool of tears at your feet

no mercy, no remorse

now you’ve had a change of heart

I swear, this is the best part

for what’s taken one must pay

now kneel down at the well

of all my tears that fell

and don’t forget to pray ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Getting Ready!

I changed the look of the blog as I'm gearing up for the holidays. Coming soon... holiday music!

P.S. I watched the movie The Bishop's Wife (1947) with Loretta Young and Cary Grant this weekend for the first time. Great holiday movie!

My Secret

you’re a secret I’d like to keep

I turn it all inward

hide away my feelings deep

you’re like a soft place to fall

I land in your calm

quiet my head when I don’t know it all

you’re like a blanket for my soul

I cuddle in thoughts of you

keeps my heart warm in the cold

no one else knows this but me

because you’re a secret I’d like to keep ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Friberg

Finished!

I haven't posted in a few days because I've been busy finishing up my manuscript. That's right, the children's book is finally finished. It's only 66 pages but I figure that should be enough because I'm completely dry when it comes to ideas and inspiration. It better be good enough. I've contacted some literary agents and we'll see what happens. Cross your fingers for me!

Quicksand

maybe I didn't always do you right
and maybe you were ready for a fight
whenever you came home
just shut up and give me a kiss
because the truth is just this

we're waltzing on quicksand
each step takes us further down
one more step and we might drown
baby hold on tight

maybe you've told a thousand lies
and baby I've tried a thousand tries
to get you to love me right
but you can't get water from a stone
and if it must be known

we're waltzing on quicksand
each step takes us further down
one more step and we might drown
baby hold on tight
just hold on tight

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

I know I swore off poems that rhyme, but technically this is a song. So there.

Hallelujah, a poem that doesn't rhyme!

That's it! I've had it with all the rhyming!! I'm putting my foot down, no more rhyming or meter patterns from here on out. I used to write this way and I will once again if it kills me.

One Man Show

I don't know where we left off
were you spouting your ignorance again
as if it were as essential to me as water?
or was I crying softly into a kleenex?
please let me know where to begin
and I'll take my place on stage
oh, this is where your monologue takes place
the lengthy one with no purpose
I'll be sure to keep my eyes propped open
just remember when you are finished
exit stage left
no encores, no callbacks
this is your only chance

break a leg ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Yearning

the night passes by so slowly

and I wonder if you know me

I wonder if you care

I walk past your window in the park

as my soul wanders in the dark

seeking your light

I turn at the corner store

where we’ve met once before

if only I could go back…

I’d say it all differently

and I’d look in your eyes

and see with no surprise

my love reflected back at me ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Friberg

Bitter

disappointment looms

on the darker side of life

where it seems that we are groomed

to accept the struggle and strife

bear it with your head held high

speak not of it at length

and your soul will slowly die

sapping all your strength

yes, it is your job to bear it

whatever comes your way

but you are never to share it

if you wish to keep your pay ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Love Quietly

quiet, quiet, peace and quiet

ringing in my ears

then the clock strikes eleven

and your voice is all I hear

Shhh, hush now

find a task

there’s no more questions for you to ask

Shh, hush now

all is well

there’s no more stories for you to tell

quiet, quiet, peace and quiet

ringing in my ears

this is how I want it

throughout the coming years

concern extended silently

and love expressed quietly ~ 

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

The Warmth of You

I could sit cozy in front of a fireplace

feel the heat from the fire on my face

I could wrap myself in a blanket tight

with a heater next to my bed at night

but I’m afraid it will only do  

to feel the warmth of you ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Friberg

Bad Day

I had a bad day today. Nothing bad happened to me, but I had a bad day all the same. I suppose we all feel out of sorts at times. I find soothing, relaxing classical music to be such a comfort on my bad days. I turn it on and lie down and usually end up falling asleep and taking a nice, deep nap. I've also come to learn that the music of Josh Groban is like a band-aid for the soul. His new album Illuminations came out yesterday and I am dying to get it but I don't have the extra money right now. Maybe I'll buy it for myself for Christmas. We should all buy ourselves something nice now and then, we deserve it! Wouldn't it be nice if we could buy health or peace of mind? Well, buying soothing music is as close as I come to buying peace of mind. Here's some beautiful music from another great artist, violinist Joshua Bell. You're welcome.

Weeping

the moon is hung high tonight

so why am I weeping?

the stars flush the sky tonight

so why am I weeping?

everything in this universe is in its place

but for one

I haven’t met the man who lights my face

he will come

and the moon will still be as sweet

the stars will still be a fleet

but with him by my side

I won’t cry,

I won’t weep ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Side Effects

Writing a children's book of rhymes has had a negative effect on my normal poetry writing. I used to write "free verse" but now I can't write without paying attention to rhyme and meter. Cursed children's rhymes!! So I've put down and stepped away from the book for a while, but still the side effects linger. I miss free verse. Please come back! Let me try one real quick:

what once the sun has shown upon
is now a wretched being recoiling from the light
withered and rusted by time
it sits and waits
sits and waits
for what it doesn't know
for time, for death, for some escape
for reconciliation with the past perhaps
for the devil to pay his call
so it may pay its dues ~

Okay, I don't know what the hell that was about, it wasn't even a poem but I don't care - it didn't rhyme, thank God in heaven!

100th Post!

This blog has come a long way! I do believe that just about every poem I have ever written can be found somewhere in this blog. There's not enough good ones for a book yet, but one day I would like to publish a book of my poetry. Now, to celebrate what I believe is the 100th post, I'll write another poem:

Daisy

what delicate petals

like precious metals

what dainty leaves

like silken sleeves

what soft stem

the better to bend

and never give birth

 its roots in the earth ~

Ta-da! I try to write a poem every day but sometimes I'm just not in the writing mood.

Love Angels

when hearts disconnect in subtle ways

when eyes list and minds stray

when brows furrow and tongues tie

when souls weep and love dies

that’s when angels draw very near

you’ll hear one whisper at your ear

"Fear not. This love, its time has come.

The future will bring a better one."

then the angel will embrace

and soft feathers brush your face

so whenever you feel the goosebumps cling

remember its just an angel's wing ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Haiku

Another random Google image.

of a pleasant view

dream without hesitation

be there in your mind ~

The Horse

let go of regret
let go of remorse
take your worries
strap them to a horse
let it not wallow
let it not fret
let it merely ride
into the sunset
yaw! giddyup old friend
tomorrow I've more to send ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Inspirational Quote

The essence of faith is to believe possibilities exist. 

- unknown

I Was Here

of the inconsequential and unsubstantial

you’ll count me not

I ran, I laughed, I slept, I cried

I loved, I yelled, I lived, I died

I mattered

so forget me not

put aside your sadness and fear

and simply know that I was here ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Haiku

Another random Google image.

 
deep meditation
the mind, the body, the earth

now becoming one ~

Walking Proud

rising independently

one strong step follows another

striding coolly towards the uncertain

unafraid and unashamed

take a card but leave your name

whatever path you may embark

be sure to always leave your mark ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Winter Haiku #3

winter's great divide

now leaves me cold and alone

stumbling in the snow ~

Yoga Girl

I found this cute pic on Google. I've been practicing yoga almost daily for the last week. I really find it relaxing, healthy for body, mind, and spirit. It's not as scary and intimidating as it used to be for me. Now that I know what I'm doing, I modify the poses to suit my own body. It's great for all ages, sizes, and fitness levels.

The River

notes falling softly

settling into a languid peace

a rolling brook of melody

carries the mind away

into a world of smooth tones and cadence

breathing melts into the gentle rhythm

and the heart quiets in the chest

so you can only feel

its mild beating at your core

as the music slowly sweeps you away

and gradually sets you adrift

on a river of inner peace

causing you to forget

your whilom life

embrace this calm for now

and never forget it ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

 

This is the short version of the song so press play and set it to repeat. Then close your eyes and take two deep breaths. Listen to your breathing in and out, and listen to the soothing melody. I find this song great for relaxing and meditating. It's from the Twilight score soundtrack.

To Be With You

if you get sick,
I’ll feed you soup and hold your hand

if you should fall,

I’ll pick you up and help you stand

if you get lost,

just turn around and I’ll be there

if you’re upset,

I’ll sooth your worries and stroke your hair

if you feel alone,

I’ll hold you near and give you a kiss

if you feel down,

I’ll write you a poem just like this

there isn’t much I wouldn’t do

if I had the chance to be with you ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Love's Dowry

I promise summer’s weather all year ‘round

and wherever you should walk, petals on the ground

and if you will promise to stay by my side

a unicorn of white for you to ride

I promise all the firmament presented at your feet

an angel from heaven to sing you to sleep

and if you promise never to leave

a little one tugging at your sleeve

this I would promise for love’s dowry ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Sublime

there's something you must know
my love for you, it isn't show
If your love falters, I'll put it right
I know what gets you through the night
If my love wavers, I'll right by force
above all, I want to stay the course
I don't wish to rock or misalign 
The precarious tenets of love sublime ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Teetering

don't be careless with my heart
don't tear, don't break, don't fall apart
just stay strong and hold on tight
we'll get there by daylight
don't throw away what used to be
don't give up on you and me

don't be careless with my heart
I won't tear, or break, or fall apart
I'll just stay here and love you right
and we'll get there by daylight
I won't take your ring or leave my key
and I won't give up on you and me ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Stars

sparkling like diamonds
in the crisp, clear autumn sky
shimmering beacons
of random pattern and size
companions of the moon
glowing in the pitch of night
lighting her path
from dusk 'til morning's light ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Winter Haiku #2

Again, just picked a random photo off Google.

winter paints the earth

with blues, greens, and frosty white

better than Monet

Today I'd like to write a poem

It need not be long
or filled with cheery song

I wouldn't like it to be terse
nor sappy with romantic verse

It need not be an epic tome
so I'll write about a simple poem ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Inspirational Quote

"Success is not to be pursued;
it is to be attracted by
the person we become."
- Jim Rohn

Winter Haiku

Again, I just grabbed this photo off of Google Images.

winter put to waste

what's now a barren landscape

aching for the sun

Peace

Of the lazy, quiet stream and mighty, raging river, I choose to be the stream.

 

But either way the water is taking the path of least resistance. 

We need to listen more closely to nature. 

To take the path of least resistance is sometimes exactly what we need.

Above all else, I seek peace.

Peace of mind and peace of life.

Your Eyes

your eyes are
glistening with fevered emotion

your eyes are

listening with love and devotion

your eyes are

the color of the Caribbean Sea

your eyes are

the wilderness of a canyon deep

your eyes are
moonlight and ocean tides

your eyes are

sunshine and butterflies

your eyes are

the fluid beauty of string quartets
your eyes are
the soothing sound of clarinets

and just in case I missed anything,

everything beautiful and wondrous in this world ~

 Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

My Writing Process

It's so strange how poems form for me sometimes. Tonight I was thinking "I'm bored, I'm going to write a poem." So I sat down and wrote the first words that came to me "In breath" and from there the poem just sorta happened. I didn't mean to rhyme the 2nd and 4th lines but I did, so I just went with it. Strange how poems come together out of thin air sometimes.

Love Spoken Softly

in breath held softly

in gentle kisses

of yesterday’s bouquets

and tomorrow’s wishes

in the stillness of time

in the blissful moments

of love spoken softly

and love’s components

in wistful touches

in trepid glances

of beautiful affairs

and brief romances ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Honey

If I held the reins

Would you crack the whip?

If I brewed the coffee

would you take a sip?

let your love slide down me

like honey down a honey tree

let your love surround me

like Buddhists try to be

peaceful and free

If I held the world

Would you take a spin?

If I swam the channel

Would you jump in?

let your love slide down me

like honey down a honey tree

let your love surround me

like Buddhists try to be

peaceful and free ~

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

I wrote this song tonight. It's not very good. The melody is better than the lyrics. I've been following the moon phases and there's no moon tonight. Creepy. I don't know why but I just feel better with that giant beacon in the sky.

Autumn

I know my winds could be gentler

My skies could be clearer

My melody sweeter

It’s true, my grass could be greener

My sun could be warmer

My breezes more fragrant

I’ll never compare with

Spring’s excitement,

Summer’s joys,

or Winter’s fun

I guess I’ll just have to be me,

incomparably

the best darned season I can be!

Copyright ©2010 Angela Schofield

Another poem for the book. It's still coming along nicely. If it were to be printed today it would be about 50 pages long, but I'm trying to get to 200. It seems a long way off.