Reflections

a pool of water at my feet
reflects the light inside of me
golden hues and copper tones
of mortal flesh and bones
if I should move I am afraid
the light within me will fade
and set aside its mortal host
the parts of me I love the most
so I will stay whole and complete
with this pool of water at my feet ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You're Beautiful

you are a beautiful person in every way
and I want you to know you brighten my day
I would survive and make do
but I could never live without you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Autumn Morning

I'm alone as the night fades from black to gray
the pumpkin colored sun peeks over the horizon
dying leaves rattle in the wind threatening to blow away
and the yellow grass crunches beneath my feet
a gust of cold wind steals my breath for a second or two
the sky is clear but bleak this morning
I hear the crows' raucous cawing in the distance
it has replaced the songbirds' sweet melodies
a chill travels down my spine as I shudder away the cold
and bundle myself up tighter against the wind

thoughts of you seem to thaw me
my mind wanders to walks we've shared
holding hands, lost in each other
I never mind the cold when I am with you

I think of you this autumn morning
and everything suddenly turns lush and green
the songbirds are once again singing
the breeze is light and warm
the sun is glowing turning the sky golden with its' light
flowers are blossoming around my feet
and there's a light scent of lilac in the air
the dew on the grass dampens my shoes
the leaves in the trees seem to float in the breeze
the dismal autumn has been replaced
with a mild and gentle spring ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Halloween Haiku

black cat in darkness

the moon is spooky tonight

Happy Halloween!

Hope and Fear

I know how it started
I know how we parted
but where did things go wrong?
I've known you for so long
the years stretch into a maze
you were more than just a phase
where do we go from here?
I'm filled with hope and fear
you are all I know
this is a chance to grow
but still I'm standing here
full of hope and fear ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Another Haiku

like the wildflowers

like the mountains staid and true

like my love for you

The Dream #2

I know not when it began
only that you were there
and we floated over land and sea
the sunlight made your eyes sparkle like garnets
and we held onto each other
afraid of falling from our embrace

night came and still we soared
you were lovely looking down at the city lights
the moonlight revealed wonder in your eyes
and still we clung to each other
to stave off the chilly night air
you kept me warm with your body heat
you were always warmer than everyone else

at last we drifted down toward a city park
we could see everything in the dark
then suddenly you were gone and I was alone
lost and stumbling through the woods
looking for you, only for you
I searched and searched for hours it seemed

then I awoke and you were next to me

let it always be, you next to me ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku of the Day

butterflies in flight

dancing over nature's green

to places unseen

Time

in the midst of time's trial
time will eat away the bile
rising in my throat so dense
help this all make sense

in the midst of time eternal
in the midst of pain infernal
at the mercy of the clock
anchored firmly at its dock

in the midst of time immortal
I'm searching for a magic portal
transport me to future years
when time will have dried my tears ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Memories

memories vivid and sweet
ring like bells on faeries' feet
reminding me of days gone by
I think of you and sigh

vines grow high and now replace
the spot where I first saw your face
I play the movies in my head
and dream of you in my bed

the memories will never die
I think of you and sigh ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

I'll follow this fence

wherever it may lead me

please let it be home

The Last Poem

this is the last poem I will write
is what I said to myself tonight
it may be long, it may be sad
chances are it will be bad

this is the last poem I will write
I'm giving up the literary fight
it's something I will never win
so I might as well give in

this is the last poem I will write
I hope you understand my blight
I'm hanging up the paper and pen
(but tomorrow I will write again) ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

golden reflections

glowing in the dark of night

like honey from bees

Writing

Sometimes things just come to me out of nowhere and I write them down. Lately, a lot of crap has been coming to me. I hate my writing more and more everyday but I keep doing it. Maybe I'm just writing this to let my readers know that I'm aware that my recent writing is crap. Yes, I do understand that. But bear with me, better things are coming. I'm pretty sure. Why not stick around and find out? I'll never be a great poet but I might actually write something worth reading someday!

The Lint Trap

blue fibers, red threads
bare and brittle like my bones
gray fluff of who knows what
empty as my soul ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

The Fight

I wouldn't care to see you today
so why don't you simply go away
I know we've had a terrible fight
but it hasn't been cured overnight

I wouldn't care to see you today
so now you best be on your way
maybe tomorrow we can talk
but not if you continue to stalk

I wouldn't care to see you today
no matter what you do or say
in time I'll feel differently
but today you need to leave ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

The Dream

I floated in the mist
and clenched my bloody fist
I saw it once in a dream
it was torn and broken at the seam
down fast the water came
initiating its brutal game
the current swept me away
I tumbled in the fray
water ran down my throat
as I struggled to stay afloat
torn and broken at the seam
it was a hell of a dream
I clenched my bloody fist
and remembered floating in the mist ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

My Love is a Jewel

I love you in so many ways
perfect like pearls, and round
I'd swim for them in the ocean, for you
my love is the deepest red of the ruby
and the bright blue of a sapphire
fire and ice
fire and ice in my veins
the eternal sparkle of the diamond
the elegance of the emerald cut
the sunset hue of the amethyst
the list goes on and on...
my love is a jewel that can only be worn by you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

kid stuff

I like yellow and blue
I like you

do you like yellow and blue?
do you like me too?

oh, you do like me!
I'm as happy as can be ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

A Bad Day

so alone
the mind is a solitary prison
its fortress walls are impenetrable
so lost
with no bearings at all
and nothing to grab onto
such a forlorn existence
sometimes it's unbearable ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

raindrops on flower

floating on a pond of glass

pretty little thing

The Blizzard

frost gathers on my window pane
I feel a bitter draft
snowflakes blow like grains of sand in a desert
coating everything in sight a shimmering white

words on the page begin to blur
I give a little yawn and stretch
my cat is wrapped around my feet
my chocolate has gone cold

outside the wind sounds hungry
the yard is a blur of white
inside the fire is dying out
a chill wraps around me

reluctantly I set down my book
and shuffle off to bed
I bundle myself in a downy mass
and drift off to sleep with the cat at my feet ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Berry Wine and Brandy

where have you been?
the taste of berry wine and brandy on your lips
warms my eager mouth
were you careful with your sips
or did you slop about? ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You and I

I kiss you
your lips are soft as rose petals
our noses touch
I taste you
your skin is salty like the sea
warm and smooth as heated rock
I love when we can be alone together
touching, talking, holding hands
holding onto each other while we can
precious time is short
there aren't enough years for me to love you
I've never felt as alive as I feel in your arms
I never want to die
I never want this to end
You and I ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

now the windblown waves

retreat into the vast sea

much like you left me

Haunted

he left me hollow
tossed in the wind like a feather
and just when I thought I found some stability
he returned
and he turned everything upside down
he left me alone
in a barren windswept desert
(the sand fills every pore, you know)
and just when I found an oasis
he returned
I took aim of his chest
pulled the trigger
and now I'm living in a lush paradise

I left him hollow
and hollow he will stay ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

You Leaving Me

goodbye dear friend
blow away like leaves from trees
you leaving me
like wood smashing to splinters
how I feel
goodbye dear friend
tears fall like raindrops on the field
you leaving me
how could this be? ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Haiku

Oh, Mr.Bluejay

How colorful your feathers!

Stay awhile longer

profiles in the sky

winging on to the unknown

leaving us to cold

Come With Me

come with me
take my hand
follow where I lead
I'll take you to the shore of bliss
we'll walk along wonder beach
the warm beams of love on our cheeks
we'll swim in a pool of ecstasy
just come with me ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Love's Gentle Embrace

love's gentle embrace is alluring
its hand slides down my cheek like notes falling slowly
I close my eyes and hear the music
it's intoxicating
I'm drifting somewhere far away in a fantasy
where strong arms coil around me
keeping me safe
where warm lips brush mine
leaving a shiver down my back
love's gentle embrace is enthralling
I am captured within it
suspended in the beauty
overcome with rapture
it's unbelievable
it's better than a romance novel
it's all-consuming wonder
love's gentle embrace is delicious
like the sweetest drop of nectar on my tongue
it's unearthly
it's divine
I never want to leave ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Change

life flows like a mighty river
no sense swimming against it
just grab onto something and take the ride
myself, I grab onto Eric
we take this journey together
enjoying the scenery along the way
it's so much better like this
I find life and its infinite change
more bearable with him at my side ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Update

Hi there folks! I was just reading my new year's post where I made my affirmations and plotted my course for 2011. I'm nowhere near where I wanted to be, but things are still good. I didn't lose anymore weight, in fact I gained a few pounds back, but I'm still much lighter than I used to be. I met a wonderful man named Eric on February 28th and we are still happily together. This is by far the happiest, healthiest relationship I've ever had. Even so, the depression bug still bites now and then. I'm trying to sleep less and find things to do with my time since I'm still not able to work. I have plans to return to school next year, but we'll have to see how things pan out financially. Once I get my CNA it should be easier to find work. Eric is almost done with his chemotherapy and surgery is around the corner, hopefully by the end of the year. Then he just has radiation and he's out of the woods! Things are looking up all around. I still write poetry when I get the bug, but it's not as good as it used to be. Dunno why? Oh well, it's still fun. That's all for now.

New Beginning

the rain came heavy on my roof
and pieces of me washed away with it
the autumn wind came fierce to my window
and pieces of me blew away with it
the parts that still loved you are gone
and in their place,
the seeds of self respect have been planted
just in time to nourish my new love
I watch it flourish
pure and heady
full of life and all things good
he is my shelter
this is my new beginning ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

me and you

Eric, my love
if I could sail the sea
I'd want you with me
if I could fly the sky
I'd take you for a ride
wherever I go, whatever I do
it will always be me and you ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

Tonight

I'm really in a writing mood tonight. Most of it is shit but it doesn't matter, I'm getting things out. Wish I could write good poems like the old days but oh well. I'll take what I can get.

lovely is my love

my love is round and smooth
gentle but firm
my love is strong and bold
soft and tender
my love is warm and kind
funny and open
my love is lovely
lovely is my love ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

you can't write a poem about a cat

Komisk is my cat.
He eats, sleeps, plays, and shits.
That's what cats do.

desperation

how soothing your words to my prickly pride
what then when words aren't enough?
how convenient your sorrow
will your tears ever dry?
I taste them salty in my tea ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Friberg

you are mine

like the leaves to the trees
like the honey to the bees

you are mine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

if we two should part

if we lose our love promise me this
you'll never forget our first kiss
you'll hold our first conversation close to your heart
and keep it there while we're apart
you'll never forget the laughs we shared
or the way you gently brushed my hair
you'll never forget the love we made
those memories will never fade
promise me that what we had
was more than just a fad
our love will be suspended in that time
we spent together in our prime
promise me that and I'll be fine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Friberg

your mind is a wonderland

pull me into your fickle fantasy
show me what you dream
do you dream in color
or icy black and white?
let me be a voyeur to your imagination
what moves you, thrills you, turns you on?
what can't you live without?
I long to know you from the inside out
not like Jonah knew the whale
but like Alice from the tale
plummeting into your wonderland
and when we awake my dear
let me hold you near
and know that you are mine
you are mine ~

Copyright ©2011 Angela Schofield

more haiku...

she sits all alone

bathes in magical waters

goes where no man goes ~

see the swirling hues

dancing upon the canvas

drawing you closer ~